Finally, A Post About Love
WARNING! This post contains major spoilers from No Game No Life Zero (anime), Doki Doki Literature Club (game), and Nagi no Asukara (anime). I highly recommend you to watch/play all these stuff before reading this post, but you're free to ignore this warning (e.g. if you're not interested in anime at all).
YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. You may now continue or leave as you wish.
I've been wanting to write a post about this for a while, but I never figured out a proper way to write it. But magically, two days ago I realized that the problem all this time is that I was afraid of telling the world about this very subject: love. So, today, I decided to eat up all my doubts and go ahead to tell you about how I truly feel.
The truth is that, for quite a while, I had this mindset of "I don't really need a girlfriend, I'm fine being alone". There's no girl that I'm particularly interested about, and I believed that dating is just a waste of money. Of course, I wasn't always like that. It certainly wasn't the case in middle school, and I remember flirting with some girls on the second grade of high school. So, it must have started on the third year of high school. Coincidentally, it was also the time where I spent most of my time playing game (specifically, DOTA) and watching anime. Oh, speaking about anime...
Anime is also the reason I finally snapped out of that mindset. Now, let me tell you a few things about No Game No Life: Zero. It is a prequel to the original No Game No Life, but I think it is very, very different from the original. No Game No Life, just like its name, is an anime about games (and some ecchi and comedy). But Zero is much more serious, and I think it also has something that the original doesn't: a real romance.
To make long story short, No Game No Life: Zero tells a story about a robot girl who's struggling to understand her own feeling (yes, this is one of those shows that has a robot who can actually feel emotions) and the guy (a human) that she loves. At one point in the story, the guy asked the robot girl to marry him. Certainly, the girl was shocked and confused. She also asked some weird questions ("But you can't have sex with me", "But we won't be able to have any kids", etc.). The guy said that he doesn't care and that he would be very happy as long he can spend the rest of his life with her. The girl was overflowed with joy, and then... wow... they actually get married!
They are my favourite couple in any anime I've ever seen. And I learned a very important lesson from them: an ideal life companion is not the most beautiful one you can find, but the one who would happily spend the rest of her life with you no matter what happens. This idea greatly relieves me. Although it's nearly impossible to determine someone's faithfulness beforehand, the thought of approaching someone who might love me is way more comforting than the thought of approaching someone who is very beautiful but might not have any interest in me whatsoever.
Two months after watching No Game No Life: Zero, I finally get to play this sugar-coated and rainbow-colored brutality of a game. I have read the warning and the reviews of this game, so I understand that this is a horror game. The thing is, I underestimated the fact that this is a dating simulation game, and therefore I fell into the trap.
There are three (four?) girls you can choose from in this game. At first, I wasn't really interested in any of them. I just played the game normally without giving any girl any special attention. Magically, one of them start showing signs that she likes me, and ... before I know it, I already fell in love with her. Even worse, this game falsely led me to believe that I might be able to have a happy ending with her .... And then, she tragically died right in front of my eyes.
I was really shocked and sad and angry. If I wasn't in my parents' house that day, I would have screamed my hearts out, but indeed it wouldn't be very pretty if my parents heard their son screaming like a madman just because a game. For the following week, I can't stop myself from thinking about that event again and again. You might think that I became so gloomy, but I managed to hide it so that nobody around me can tell that I was very sad. This is the first time that any virtual entertainment manages to emulate the feeling of losing someone that I really love (something that I admittedly have never felt before). I'm glad it wasn't real.
Two weeks after finishing my first playthrough of Doki Doki, I got a chance to relieve some of my stress by watching this beautiful anime, Nagi no Asukara. I can go on a full review on this one, but in this post I'd just highlight the romance part of this anime. Nagi no Asukara has a ridiculously complicated love chain. This girl likes this boy, but that boy likes another girl, but the girl he likes actually likes someone else ... and so on.
Somewhere along that chain, is this girl with black hair and blue eyes:
She is a quiet but a very kind girl, and she would do anything for the ones she loves, even if it would hurt herself. She wasn't a major character in the first half of the anime, but she quickly rose into a heroine after she fell in love with one of the main character of this anime. But for me, the most interesting thing about Miuna is this boy named Minegishi.
To us viewers, this Minegishi boy is largely an unknown character. He never appeared in the early episodes of this anime, but at one episode we quickly learn that he is in love with Miuna, and he has been so for a long time. The problem is that he doesn't know that she already has someone else that she loves. At one night, he decided to meet Miuna and tell her that he loves her. Unsurprisingly, he got shot down instantly, even before he can say anything (apparently, Miuna already know that Minegishi likes her).
Now, you might think that it wasn't a big deal, you might even think that this kind of stuff is cliché. But this particular scene is chillingly similar to what I did back in middle school. A half assed attempt at confessing love to a pretty girl I barely knew about. The biggest difference is that Minegishi doesn't give up and keeps going on with his love, whereas I simply gave up after the rejection of my first (and so far the last) attempt at love.
Now, what's next? It's nice that I've learned a few things about love from these anime, but what's the point if I never make any move in real life? Well, it's not that simple. Aside from a few fleeting moments, I haven't found any person that really makes me fall in love. Add that to the fact that I rarely interact with any girl in real world and it becomes very hard to make a progress. But I believe that this feeling, this hole in my heart that tells me I'm longing for a love, is a very good starting point.
I think that's it for now. I hope you enjoy the post, and I hope you can find someone who truly loves you. Thank you for reading and see you again!
YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. You may now continue or leave as you wish.
***
I've been wanting to write a post about this for a while, but I never figured out a proper way to write it. But magically, two days ago I realized that the problem all this time is that I was afraid of telling the world about this very subject: love. So, today, I decided to eat up all my doubts and go ahead to tell you about how I truly feel.
The truth is that, for quite a while, I had this mindset of "I don't really need a girlfriend, I'm fine being alone". There's no girl that I'm particularly interested about, and I believed that dating is just a waste of money. Of course, I wasn't always like that. It certainly wasn't the case in middle school, and I remember flirting with some girls on the second grade of high school. So, it must have started on the third year of high school. Coincidentally, it was also the time where I spent most of my time playing game (specifically, DOTA) and watching anime. Oh, speaking about anime...
No Game No Life: Zero
Anime is also the reason I finally snapped out of that mindset. Now, let me tell you a few things about No Game No Life: Zero. It is a prequel to the original No Game No Life, but I think it is very, very different from the original. No Game No Life, just like its name, is an anime about games (and some ecchi and comedy). But Zero is much more serious, and I think it also has something that the original doesn't: a real romance.
To make long story short, No Game No Life: Zero tells a story about a robot girl who's struggling to understand her own feeling (yes, this is one of those shows that has a robot who can actually feel emotions) and the guy (a human) that she loves. At one point in the story, the guy asked the robot girl to marry him. Certainly, the girl was shocked and confused. She also asked some weird questions ("But you can't have sex with me", "But we won't be able to have any kids", etc.). The guy said that he doesn't care and that he would be very happy as long he can spend the rest of his life with her. The girl was overflowed with joy, and then... wow... they actually get married!
They are my favourite couple in any anime I've ever seen. And I learned a very important lesson from them: an ideal life companion is not the most beautiful one you can find, but the one who would happily spend the rest of her life with you no matter what happens. This idea greatly relieves me. Although it's nearly impossible to determine someone's faithfulness beforehand, the thought of approaching someone who might love me is way more comforting than the thought of approaching someone who is very beautiful but might not have any interest in me whatsoever.
Doki Doki Literature Club
Two months after watching No Game No Life: Zero, I finally get to play this sugar-coated and rainbow-colored brutality of a game. I have read the warning and the reviews of this game, so I understand that this is a horror game. The thing is, I underestimated the fact that this is a dating simulation game, and therefore I fell into the trap.
There are three (four?) girls you can choose from in this game. At first, I wasn't really interested in any of them. I just played the game normally without giving any girl any special attention. Magically, one of them start showing signs that she likes me, and ... before I know it, I already fell in love with her. Even worse, this game falsely led me to believe that I might be able to have a happy ending with her .... And then, she tragically died right in front of my eyes.
I was really shocked and sad and angry. If I wasn't in my parents' house that day, I would have screamed my hearts out, but indeed it wouldn't be very pretty if my parents heard their son screaming like a madman just because a game. For the following week, I can't stop myself from thinking about that event again and again. You might think that I became so gloomy, but I managed to hide it so that nobody around me can tell that I was very sad. This is the first time that any virtual entertainment manages to emulate the feeling of losing someone that I really love (something that I admittedly have never felt before). I'm glad it wasn't real.
Nagi no Asukara
Two weeks after finishing my first playthrough of Doki Doki, I got a chance to relieve some of my stress by watching this beautiful anime, Nagi no Asukara. I can go on a full review on this one, but in this post I'd just highlight the romance part of this anime. Nagi no Asukara has a ridiculously complicated love chain. This girl likes this boy, but that boy likes another girl, but the girl he likes actually likes someone else ... and so on.
Somewhere along that chain, is this girl with black hair and blue eyes:
She is a quiet but a very kind girl, and she would do anything for the ones she loves, even if it would hurt herself. She wasn't a major character in the first half of the anime, but she quickly rose into a heroine after she fell in love with one of the main character of this anime. But for me, the most interesting thing about Miuna is this boy named Minegishi.
To us viewers, this Minegishi boy is largely an unknown character. He never appeared in the early episodes of this anime, but at one episode we quickly learn that he is in love with Miuna, and he has been so for a long time. The problem is that he doesn't know that she already has someone else that she loves. At one night, he decided to meet Miuna and tell her that he loves her. Unsurprisingly, he got shot down instantly, even before he can say anything (apparently, Miuna already know that Minegishi likes her).
Now, you might think that it wasn't a big deal, you might even think that this kind of stuff is cliché. But this particular scene is chillingly similar to what I did back in middle school. A half assed attempt at confessing love to a pretty girl I barely knew about. The biggest difference is that Minegishi doesn't give up and keeps going on with his love, whereas I simply gave up after the rejection of my first (and so far the last) attempt at love.
***
Now, what's next? It's nice that I've learned a few things about love from these anime, but what's the point if I never make any move in real life? Well, it's not that simple. Aside from a few fleeting moments, I haven't found any person that really makes me fall in love. Add that to the fact that I rarely interact with any girl in real world and it becomes very hard to make a progress. But I believe that this feeling, this hole in my heart that tells me I'm longing for a love, is a very good starting point.
***
I think that's it for now. I hope you enjoy the post, and I hope you can find someone who truly loves you. Thank you for reading and see you again!
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